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(This content has no head and toe to be very honest Merge of some contradictory thoughts Just a mere conversation in my head Answering the questions raised by me to myself ) A solemn loop of losing and finding  while life is slipping up and versions are fading.. We all go through it, I would prefer to say " We are going through it " I am standing watching the horizon; Where eye meets the cold shivering waves with the warmth radiating through the eternal sky Is it the end or a beginning? There's always more than what meets the eye... Well the two eyes each one of us have might see things differently but the problem is that t he same pair of eyes I behold, sees same things differently every time I glance at it... :  The world outside is too vast to explore but what's larger is the one inside    I hate to be perceived as a shallow being with no depth inside so I seek peace;    I seek perseverance;  I seek those infinite grandiose mysteries of the universe...

( Does pretending make life easier to live or does it make it more unlivable? We seek happiness for those moments are forgotten much earlier, while we remember the sadness for it is never gone from the soul. With everyday questioning my existence  seeing nothing in everything, I hope someday I'll see everything in nothing for once in life; finally learning to live and not just existing to cease..) A Void; An empty space With lines and carvings unseen Of something never known But is it empty as its seen? Empty as it's believed to be? A void; With scribbles and scars Sitting on some corner like a mere dirt, Surrounded by vicissitudes of life Should I just let them rot? A void; Hidden somewhere  Hiding something, Deep within Where there's an end to sth that begins.. Maybe; I am just passing through the points this void would go never But what if i don't wanna be in the middle..... What if I desire; forever? ______________________________ To fill up this void  Pretense is c...

Waking at the dead of night reminiscing some moments breaking you; leaves you sobbing on the floor, In the utter darkness trying to heal alone wondering if life can give you more. Being aware of that same old empty heart fear of judgements time to time, Glimpse of flaming dusk leaving darkness behind realized something aren’t just worth to climb. In the wonderland I stepped into a mindscape those feelings I felt can’t put into simpler words, Staring at the ceiling as it fades away each and everything eventually gets blurred. __________________________________________________________________________________ Then watching the sky which has always been engraved within me.. I feel I could actually wade into this night; Sky is in blaze with the stars as it's supposed to be Like the heart that's burning  with depth so profound for somethings it's longing.... When the moon tries to peak from that grey murky sky, Across the stars  above the cloud so high, Wind screeching against my...