I've wondered

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Being part of this discontent human race, signifying frustration with life in every possible way, on certain days, at certain times…..

I’ve wondered..
why does the world seem so much more yet so less at the same time,
why the orders made by the identical races are so hard to follow( by themselves ),
if all the madness lies inside the world, why does it still feel so ordinary,
why is the feeling for everything so deep, yet the world still feels hollow,

I’ve wondered…..
about the possibilities within the impossible,
dwelling to and fro between fiction and reality I admit,
asking myself if that blurry line between them would ever be crossable,
if the fantasy I seek helps me escape my truth or is actually helping me survive in it.

In the dark ,in the quiet and in the solitude….
I have, I most definitely have wondered about those interchangeable feelings,
that changes at the drop of a hat,
how the past I refused to live in,
has now become one of the very few blissful memoirs I wanna relive (and this time without discontent)

I’ve wondered….
if I’m just another soul existing,
amongst hundreds of thousands of living corpses out there
that I would never be able to befriend,
I’ve always wondered if I might someday set with the sun
and become a story that will never have an actual happy end……


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